why? i work a lot, travel frequently, work intensely for long hours, have very little time off and put forth 100% in everything i do. sound like a time bomb? well it feels so. warning will robinson warning.
it's been a good two months now where i've noticed a considerable daily weight of exhaustion. and of late, i've noticed moments where i feel asthmatic, working for breath which has never been a problem for me. i have contracted frequent head aches. my muscles ache, my back and ankle especially ache and my body feels heavy, especially my upper torso.
i did have a chance to sleep in this morning but upon waking, i still feel exhausted and weighty. it does not feel like an all and all out cold. it feels more as if i am swimming against the tide, a feeling i tend not to be a fan of. i don't like for anything to slow me down but i'm beginning to wonder if there might be more to this.
i've considered visiting a doctor, probably should, though doctor visits and me often include the term stubborn and resistant. even now, i sit here and my eye lids are heavy, my chest a bit tight and my body in a low state of ache. i know somehow this could get quite serious if i do not take action in the now.
this is not me, this constantly sleepy person. i am invincible! or am i...
maybe the long burn has run it's course. maybe hippy chick you need to chill. not for a day but for several. sleep deprivation has been touted as damaging by many. i imagine sleep deprivation to be part of the issue. guess you can't gain the energy back in one short night of sleep.
i know i should rest, my brain tells me so. but for me, rest often equals guilt. it's a terrible circle but one i think i must cut through or face a rather worse future. so folks i'm checking in to the rest at home nap zone today (or do the best that i can manage to) putting best foot forward toward recovery because in fact i do feel like i'm going to fall over at any moment.
good news is that it's a rainy day. the patter on the roof might just help me doze off and the light quality is perfect for drifting.
moral of the story - an overworked soul weighs heavy - rest, sleep and enjoy life.
working towards the soulful, superchica, hippy chick. till tomorrow - good rest and good happiness to all.